'L-għoti mill-Dlam Gatti Light

Ix-xhieda ta Esther Ruth

"Imbagħad jekk xi ħadd għandu say unto you, Lo, hawnhekk huwa Kristu, jew hemm; jemmnu li mhux. Għall hemm għandhom jinqalgħu christs foloz u profeti foloz, u ma għandhomx juru sinjali kbar u tistaqsi, insomuch li, kieku kien possibbli, huma għandhom iqarrqu bil-ħafna jeleġġi. Behold, I qallek qabel. Wherefore, jekk dawn għandhom jgħidu unto you, Behold, huwa fid-deżert; jmorru ma raba ': behold, huwa fil-kmamar sigrieti; jemmnu li mhux. Għall bħala l-sajjetti cometh mill-lvant, u anke shineth unto-punent, hekk għandu wkoll d-dħul ta 'l-Iben tal-bniedem tkun. "Mattew 24:23-27

Permezz wara Kristu falza fil-deżert u tara s-sinjali u tistaqsi, I għexu din is-silta l-Iskrittura. Tifħir jkun li Alla Min mill-ħniena kbira tiegħu mogħtija lili mill-delużjoni blinding ta 'dlam.

Sfond

Matul il-80 tard u madwar l-90's, I kien jinqabad fl-fenomenu apparition għaddej madwar id-dinja. Huwa deher allikieku "Mary" kienet tidher li tagħti direzzjonijiet lid-"tfal tagħha" qabel l-aħħar daħal. Kien spjegat li dawk biss taħt il-protezzjoni ta 'Marija ikun iffrankat, u li l-Iben tagħha kienet qed tibgħat tagħha quddiemu biex tħabbar Tiegħu li ġejjin. Għal sekli sħaħ dan kien il-leġġenda jitfasslu bir-reqqa fi ħdan il-Knisja Kattolika Rumana.

Mary kien elevat għal pożizzjoni ugwali għal Binha. Fil-imħuħ ta 'dawk ta' magħna li kienu kkontrollati mill Ruma, konna jonora l-"Omm ta 'Alla", mhux worshiping tagħha. Theologians spjegat il-bogħod tieni kmandament "Thou shalt ma tagħmel unto thee kull xbiha minquxin ... Thou shalt ma pruwa stabbiliti thyself għalihom, u lanqas iservu minnhom ..." Eżodu 20: 4a & 5a. Min kienu aħna għall-mistoqsija dawk li kienu ġew maħtura bħala l-dixxendenti "ta 'Pietru u l-Appostli"? Ma Scripture jgħidulna li Ġesù kien maħtur Peter jkun il-blat li fuqu knisja tiegħu huwa stabbilit?

Ħabib li traveled Fatima, Lourdes, u Medjugore bdew jedukaw lili aktar dwar Marija. I sema 'b'attenzjoni kif hi qaltli li Marija kienet maħtura dispensur ta' kull grazzja. Ġesù miet għal dnubietna, imma Hu Marija taw is-setgħa li teżenta l-grazzja Huwa kien kiseb għalina fuq Calvary. Fir-ħabib tiegħi kompliet, I kien aktar fond imfassal fil-web ta 'Ruma ta' qerq. Dan it-tagħlim falz blinded għalija li l-verità ta '2:5 Timothy 1 "Għall hemm Alla wieħed, u medjatur wieħed bejn Alla u l-irġiel, il-bniedem, Kristu Ġesù."

Idolatry

Messaġġi ta ' "Mary" minn Medjugorje, Fatima, Garabandal, Conyers, La Salette u postijiet oħrajn ikkontribwixxa ħafna għall-parteċipazzjoni fil-ħsieb tiegħi idolatrous u l-prattiċi. Abitazzjoni fil-"qalba ta 'Marija Immakulata" kienet ippreżentata bħala l-protezzjoni biss mill-rabja ta' Alla. Din Mary "tal-Messagg" kien jissostitwixxi Ġesù fl-imħuħ ta 'dawk li kien seduced minn kanzunetta Siren tagħha.

Dalwaqt "Mary" bdew jidhru fil locale tiegħi stess bħala "lady tagħna ta 'dawl". Dan apparition suppost told a SEER li hi kienet ser jidher fil-Knisja ta 'San Ġużepp fil-Cold Springs, Kentucky f'nofsillejl tat-31 Awissu, 1992. Dawk minna li kienu "fl dwar" dan l-avveniment eagerly stenniet "Mary" li tinżel mis-sema biex iqassmu grazzja tagħha magħna. Come, hija għamlet, bi dwal u sensazzjonijiet u l-viżjonijiet; ma 'l-enerġija li daru u rosaries midalji tad-deheb fil-kulur. Ħafna deskritti l-avveniment bħala juru "ħafifa".

Video tapes u stampi ta 'dawn id-dwal kienu prodotta bil-massa. Il-messaġġi "ta 'l-apparition ġew ippubblikati fil-kotba li tkun mifruxa madwar id-dinja. Biss donazzjoni kienet mitluba għal dawn il-materjali sabiex jżommha mhux organzation profitt. Flus daħal għargħar minn madwar id-dinja u l-persuni daħal fil busloads. L-Isqof u l-gvern lokali kienu rrabjata. Tixrid Kelma li rabja tagħhom kienet prova tal-fidi tagħna. Would nisimgħu lill-Isqof u l-uffiċjali tal-gvern lokali jew li nisimgħu l-"Omm ta 'Alla"? Din l-"Mary" tal-Messagg rebaħ idejn stabbiliti ma 'dawk li kienu qed isiru aktar titħabbel fix-leġġenda.

Peress I kien skedat li jaħdmu fuq 31 Awissu, 1992 u emmnu Alla jista 'jilħaq kull fejn me I kien, I ma jattendu din l-ewwel "juru dawl". Għalkemm I kien jaf Alla kien kullimkien u I ma kellhiex għalfejn esperjenza an apparition jew mur fuq pellegrinaġġ biex isibu lilu, I kien enticed mill-messaġġi u l-manifestazzjonijiet ta 'Messagg. I jaqra messaġġi minn Medjugorje u bosta postijiet oħrajn oħra li jallegaw li huma jirċievu messaġġi mill-ġenna. My friend imressaq me video tal-juru dawl "li lgħabt kollha matul is-sena ħsieb kienet xi ħaġa speċjali ħafna. Il-video flimkien ma kontinwament jaraw Mother Angelica fuq it-TV, qari messaġġi kollha minn madwar id-dinja u jkollna laħħaq mal-ċirku ta 'persuni li kienu "fl dwar" Messagg kollha kkontribwew għat-tpinġija lili iżjed fil-fond fid-dlam spiritwali.

Kellna ma semgħu dak Ġeremija kien qal fil-kapitolu 7:17-20 dwar l-Reġina tas-sema: "thou Seest ma dak li jagħmlu fl-ibliet ta Judah u fit-toroq ta 'Ġerusalemm? It-tfal jiġbru l-injam, u l-missirijiet kindle-nar, u n-nisa tagħhom knead għaġina, kejkijiet li jagħmlu l-reġina ta 'l-ġenna, u li jkunu mferrgħin fl xarba ta' offerti ta unto gods oħra, li jistgħu jipprovokaw nagħmel rabja. Do dawn jipprovokaw nagħmel rabja? l-saith Lord. Ma dawn ma jipprovokawx ruħhom li l-konfużjoni l-uċuħ tagħhom stess? Għalhekk għalhekk jgħid il-Mulej Alla, Behold, rabja tal-mini u fury tiegħi għandhom ikunu msawwab fuq dan il-post, fuq il-bniedem, u fuq kruha, u fuq il-siġar tal-qasam, u fuq il-frott ta 'l-art; u għandu jaħraq u m'għandhomx jiġu mkessħa. "

Dawn il-kliem ta 'l-Iskrittura laqat lili bħal bolt tas-sajjetti meta I ewwel jaqrawhom. I kien ħati ta 'worshipping l-reġina ta' l-ġenna kif deskritt fl Ġeremija. Dan kien il-ħidma ta 'l-Ispirtu s-Santu minħabba li bl-kundanna tad-dnub tiegħi I kien offrut il-grazzja li jaqleb minn qima idolatrous ta' "Mary", b'mod falz, li kienu ngħataw it-titolu "Omm Alla". Marija hi Omm biss ta 'l-umanità ta Ġesù Kristu, Alla l-uniku-Man. Fil Deity Tiegħu Huwa mingħajr bidu. Minkejja snin ta 'brainwashing fil-knisja ta' Ruma, il-poter ta 'l-Ispirtu s-Santu tatni fehim tal-Kelma ta' Alla. Għalkemm xorta jkun hemm l-eżerċizzju fit-tul permezz ta 'l-dlam qabel il-veritajiet tal-Kelma ta' Alla kien stabbilit me ħielsa minn Ruma, vise tagħha jixbħu grip kien qed jibda jinħallux.

Il-Papa kien jivvjaġġaw madwar id-dinja laqgħa mal-kapijiet ta 'stat u jagħti tifħir għal "Mary". Nies ġew minn kullimkien biss biex KISS saqajh. Konferenzi Żgħażagħ kienu qed jiġu organizzati madwar id-dinja biex twettaq il-ħidma tal-Papa mal-entużjażmu u l-entużjażmu. L-etajiet kollha kienu qed wasslu biex tagħti lill-"Mary", dovuta minħabba l Alla waħdu homage. Bħala mexxej spiritwali tal-knisja ta 'Ruma, il-Papa kien qed iwassal il-membri kollha ta' l-qatgħa tiegħu fis consecrating ruħhom li "Mary". Huwa kien ta 'spiss jidher tinkina qabel statwi ta' "Mary" filwaqt li titolbu biex tagħha. Huwa wassal tiegħu suġġetti għall-pruwa irkopptejn tagħhom għall-immaġini jingħad li l-"Omm Alla". Huwa temm il-kreditu lill-"Mary's" intervent meta l-ħajja tiegħu ġiet meħlusa f'tentattiv assassinju. I falz motivata li jekk l-Papa kien qed iwassal li aħna tal-pruwa qabel statwi u consecrate lilna nfusna biex il-"qalba ta 'Marija Immakulata", dan għandu jkun dak li Alla kien us do. Wara kollox, il-Papa kien maħtur bħala l-kap tal-Knisja fid-dinja.

"Messaġġi mill ġenna"

Permezz ta 'din id-darba, I kien jattendi massa ta' kuljum, l-infiq lottijiet ta 'żmien fl-adorazzjoni ewkaristika, u titolbu rużarju tiegħi matul il-ġurnata. Iżda, grazzi jkun li Alla, jiena xorta tinqara mill-Bibbja kuljum tiegħi; I iħobb il-Iskrittura. Il-Lord użati Kelma Tiegħu li żżomm ruħ tiegħi lura kompletament magħluqa għall-verità.

Bosta nies bdiet toħroġ minn dan il-fenomenu apparition kif jirċievu messaġġi ewlenin mill-ġenna. Kien hemm mara li kienet irċeviet il-messaġġ oriġinali javżak tagħha ta ' "lady tagħna ta' dawl". 'Mara oħra qalet li kienet wasslet għal razzett Falmouth, Kentucky minn vuċi mis-sema u teologu Ġiżwiti qal li kienu raw "Mary" jidhru fuq 31 Awissu, 1992. Hu qal li kien qed jirċievi messaġġi minn Ġesù u Marija li jġeddu l-saċerdozju, il-Knisja, u d-dinja. Viżjonarji oħra varji ew sentenzi mill-ilħna seduta injam u viżjonijiet li jkollhom. Il-web kien intricately minsuġin li jaqbdu kemm kemm jista 'jkun bħala "ilħna" segwaċi miġbura mill-bogħod u wiesgħa.

Għadd kbir ta 'kotba bil-messaġġi minn "Heaven" ġew ippubblikati. Imbagħad, l-viżjonarji beda ġlied fost xulxin. Kull ippruvaw jgħidu tiegħu / messaġġi tagħha kienu l-uniċi awtentiċi. Oħrajn ntqal li kienu messaġġi li jaslu mill Satana biex jikkontrobattu l-messaġġi tagħhom - dan sar il-cry gwerra ta 'l-viżjonarji fil-ġlieda qawwa tagħhom. Fl-istess ħin, il-messaġġi minn "lady tagħna ta 'dawl" kienu jinħarġu ma jitkellmu dwar xulxin. "Hija" kienet tgħid kollha ta 'l-gossip kien jipprova jeqred "xogħol tagħha" f'dan il-qasam. "Iżda Ġesù kien jaf il-ħsibijiet tagħhom, u qalilhom:" Kull saltna maqsuma kontra nnifisha hija miġjuba li Desolation, u kull belt jew dar maqsuma kontra nnifsu mhux se toqgħod. 26 Jekk Satana casts fl Satana, huwa maqsum kontra tiegħu nnifsu. Kif imbagħad se joqgħod saltna tiegħu? "Mattew 12: 25-26 NKJV

"Għax aħna wrestle mhux kontra l-laħam u l-demm, iżda kontra principalities, kontra l-mexxejja ta 'l-dlam ta' din id-dinja, kontra l-ħażen spiritwali f'postijiet għolja." Efesin 6:12

I ippruvaw jibqgħu barra ta 'l-infighting u biex jiffokaw fuq Alla. Matul il-massa ta 'kuljum u filwaqt li fl-adorazzjoni ewkaristika I qattgħu żmien jikkontemplaw Ġesù. I ma bħall-battalji u shunned jkunu bil-fil-folla li dehru li jinqabdu fl-importanza tagħhom stess. Il-viżjonarju I kien eventwalment enticed fis-lottijiet li ġejjin jintnefqu wkoll ta 'żmien fl-adorazzjoni Ewkaristika. Ħafna qalet li kienet stramba li hi kienet ser tremble kif hi sib qabel l-Ewkaristija. I felt sorry għall tagħha minħabba I rat tagħha bħala "miġbura fuq". Hija ta 'spiss jiġu f'kuntatt ma' l-kappella tagħha xagħar kollha disheveled u coat tagħha li lottijiet ta 'lint kollha fuqha. Ħsibt li hija meħtieġa għajnuna. I ma bħall-attitudni ta 'dawk li se jitkellmu dwar tagħha. At that time I did not think it was possible for anyone to be possessed before the eucharist. Now, as I look back, I know that this could be true.

Eucharistic adoration is idolatry. How can Jesus be present body, blood, soul and divinity in the eucharist when Scripture clearly tells us that His body is in Heaven sitting at the right hand of the Father? Only with the leading of the Holy Spirit through the Scriptures have I been able to acknowledge this. In the past I would never have dared to think such a thing. Scripture tells us that worshipping anything made by human hands is idolatry. Isaiah 2:8 “Their land also is full of idols; they worship the work of their own hands, that which their own fingers have made:” God's Word also tells us that Jesus died for our sins, was resurrected on the third day and ascended into Heaven. Acts 1:9-11 “And when He had spoken these things, while they beheld, He was taken up; and a cloud received him out of their sight. And while they looked stedfastly toward heaven as He went up, behold, two men stood by them in white apparel; Which also said, Ye men of Galilee, why stand ye gazing up into heaven? this same Jesus, which is taken up from you into heaven, shall so come in like manner as ye have seen Him go into heaven.”

Qabel ma Ġesù li ġejjin Tiegħu tieni nnifsu qalilna li kien jidħol ħafna tgħidilna li huma l-Kristu u huma ser jaħdmu sinjali kbar u tistaqsi, biżżejjed biex iqarqu l-jeleġġi jekk dan kien possibbli. Huwa qalilna li ma jidħolx fid-deżert li wara dawn christs falza u li ma jidħolx l-kmamar sigrieti. Ġesù kien jaf dwar dawk li jippruvaw iwassalna astray ma foloz "messaġġi" li jippreżentaw ieħor Evanġelju u ieħor Ġesù ". Mattew 24:4 "U Ġesù wieġeb u qalilhom:" Ħu attenzjoni li l-ebda wieħed iqarraq int. 5 Għal ħafna se jidħlu fl-isem tiegħi, qal, "jiena l-Kristu," u se iqarrqu ħafna. "Mattew 24:11" Imbagħad profeti foloz ħafna ser titla 'u jqarrqu bil ħafna. "Mattew 24:23-27" Imbagħad jekk ħadd jgħid lilek, "Look, hawn hu l-Kristu!" jew "Ma!" ma jemmnu fiha. Għall christs foloz u profeti foloz se jitla 'u juru sinjali kbira u tistaqsi li jqarrqu, jekk possibbli, anki l-jeleġġi. Ara, I qallek qabel. Għalhekk, jekk jgħidu lilek, "Look, He huwa fid-deżert!" ma jmorrux out; jew "Ħares, Huwa fil-kmamar ta 'ġewwa!" ma jemmnu fiha. Għall bħala l-sajjetti tiġi mill-lvant u fwawar fil-punent, hekk ukoll se-dħul ta 'l-Iben ta' Man jkun. "

Magħżula li ġejjin mill-dlam

Matul il-fażi ta 'reklutaġġ ta' jitħajru fil wara l-prophetess falza, I kien qal hija kienet tirċievi messaġġi qatt ma jinstema 'qabel minn "Ġesù". Dawn il-messaġġi kienu jagħmlu l-Iskrittura lixxi u li jġeddu l-saċerdozju, il-knisja u d-dinja. Flimkien mal-kitbiet ta 'l-teologu Ġiżwita, dawn il-messaġġi għandha tkun mifruxa mad-dinja kollha. Qassisin kienu l-miri primarji għal dan il-moviment "għall kienu dawk l-aktar importanti għall-kontinwazzjoni ta 'l-sagrifiċċju" kuljum ". Mingħajr il-qassisin, Ġesù ma tibqax preżenti lilna fl-Ewkaristija. Aħna qalulhom-dinja se tidħol fis-dlam, jekk il-qassisin ma ġewx imġedda permezz tal-messaġġi ta 'l-prophetess foloz u l-kitbiet ta' l-teologu Ġiżwiti.

Lay nies ikunu reklutati minn madwar id-dinja biex jibdew gruppi ta 'talb għall-saċerdoti. Dan ikun sforz għeruq ħaxix. Il-vuċi amministrata permezz ta 'l prophetess falza li tippreżenta ruħha "Ġesù" jagħti struzzjonijiet espliċiti dwar dak li rridu nagħmlu. Aħna ser tkun responsabbli biex tinbeda l-renju tal-qalb sagra fid-dinja. Il-teologu Ġiżwiti kienu ssemmew mill-viżjonarju li tirċievi l-messaġġi minn "lady tagħna ta 'dawl". Il-"Madonna ta 'dawl" vuċi told a SEER li dan il qassis kien li tkun il-direttur spiritwali ta' ministeru vitali li jġeddu l-saċerdozju, il-knisja u d-dinja. Huwa jkun il-wieħed responsabbli għall għaqlin l-awtentiċità tal-messaġġi li jaslu mill-"viżjonarju / locutionists involuta fil-ministeru speċifiku tiegħu. L-ilħna riċevuti mill-Kappillan Ġiżwiti kienu talb tiddetta li jingħad għat-tiġdid tal-saċerdozju. Hu kien li tinkiteb newsletter li tintbagħat għal kull saċerdot fid-dinja biex tibda t-tiġdid tagħhom hekk id-dinja tkun tista 'tinżamm mill-dlam. Kien hemm fid-dinja web wiesgħa ta 'interkonnettività ta' "viżjonarju / locutionists". Ħafna minnhom kien li Medjugorje. Ħafna kienu bdew jirċievu "locutions" (channeled messaġġi) fil Medjugorje jew ftit wara r-ritorn minn dan il-post ta 'Messagg. Ħafna kienu ġew AVID segwaċi ta 'Nancy Fowler ta Conyers, il-Ġorġja.

Il-grupp ta 'talb "biex titolbu ghall-qassisin" żviluppat fi proġett li jikkunsmaw ħafna żmien bħala l-leħen talbu aktar żmien u aktar minna. Ma kienx l-impenn sempliċi I kienu ħasbu li jkun meta I magħquda. Inizjalment, aħna ltaqa 'darba fil-ġimgħa sabiex recite-talb li kienu ġew iddettati għall-direttur spiritwali permezz vuċijiet tiegħu. Aħna mbagħad recite l-rużarju li matulu l-prophetess falza se tirċievi "locutions" u jagħti lill-grupp fl-attendenza. Il-channeled ilħna normalment kienu identifikati bħala "Ġesù". Fi żminijiet, dan il-vuċi tidentifika lilha nnifisha bħala "Mary". Drabi oħra kien identifikat ruħha bħala "Alla l-Missier". Spiss il-gruppi ser idumu aktar minn tliet sigħat minħabba l-volum ta 'messaġġi li jaslu. Peress li din il-mara jkollha l-viżjonijiet, hi iddeskrivihom lilna. Spiss oħrajn fil-grupp ikollu viżjonijiet ukoll. Statwi se jixgħelu, jiċċaqalqu u fsada anki fi żminijiet. Ħafna drabi dawn cry. Kien bħallikieku konna taħt jespliċitaw li kkawżat me li wieħed jaħseb li kien fl-I holiest tal-postijiet kollha.

I ma jirrealizzaw dak li kien verament jiġri sal-I ġiet mogħtija mill-Demm ta 'Ġesù u l-fehma tiegħi ġie mnaddaf mill-Kelma Tiegħu l-ikklerjar taċ-ċpar ta' dawn l-influwenzi maġika. Matul il-fażijiet inizjali ta 'dan il-grupp, il-channeled vuċi għandhom bombard us bil-kliem' l-imħabba bla kundizzjonijiet tiegħu għalina. Din hija parti mill-fażi ta 'reklutaġġ. Il-ganċijiet huma mormija minn posthom biex jaqbad il-ħut li huma biżżejjed biex gullible gidma. Il-lixka kienet amministrata vuċi li tidentifika lilha nnifisha bħala "Ġesù". Huwa qalilna li l-imħabba tiegħu għalina u kif meħtieġa magħna biex iwasslu għal-renju tal-qalb sagru. Is-sinjali u tistaqsi jakkumpanjaw kollha ta 'dan kienu b'saħħithom. Fit-terminoloġija bini ta 'kult, din tissejjaħ "mħabba bombi".

Bini ta 'Torri ta' Babel

Spiss dan il-vuċi għandhom jitkellem waqt whisper tant baxxi li wieħed ikollu strain biex ikunu jistgħu jisimgħu il-messaġġ importanti. Dawn whispers kienu simili lulls jwasslu grupp talb tagħna fiż-żona ta 'l-għabex jespliċitaw. Wara 'l-għoti tiegħi minn dan il-kult, I kien astonished I meta jaqra din il-kitba: "U shalt thou jitniżżlu, u shalt jitkellmu ta' l-art, u diskors jsw għandhom ikunu baxxi mill-trab, u l-vuċi jsw għandhom, bħala ta 'wieħed li hath spirtu familjari, barra mill-art, u diskors jsw għandhom whisper mill-trab. "Isaija 29:4. Il-vuċi Smajt whispering mill-trab kienet dik ta 'l-ispirtu demonic.

Xi kultant l-vuċi għandhom jiksbu ħafna loud. Kultant ikun sod biżżejjed sabiex pathetic kważi break-qalb tiegħek. Ħafna drabi ngħid li ħafna kienu ġew imsejħa; iżda ftit kienu ġew magħżula. Aħna jemmnu kellna ġiet magħżula u minħabba l-privileġġ "ħafna matul is-sekli mixtieq - il-missjoni ta 'ushering fil-renju" tal-qalb sagra ". Ismijiet ta 'l-magħżula fl-attendenza ta' spiss kienu msejħa fl-teħid wieħed iħossu speċjali għal "Alla", wieħed mill-aħjar ". Oftentimes l-vuċi qal li konna ftit fin-numru u kellu jaħdem anki diffiċli ħafna minħabba li kienet irrifjutat l-sejħa. L-implikazzjoni kienet li dawk li kienet irrifjutat li jissieħbu fl-ministeru "jew li jobdu l-messaġġi kienu rifjut" Alla ".

Iskrittura kinux mgħawwġin u mgħawġa biex tippreżenta tifsiriet mhux maħsuba minn Alla. Il-Kelma ta 'Alla kien maligned mill-missier ta' tinsab. Dan il-pass il-proċess insidjuż mill wove pass bil-mod u intenzjonat li jinsab verità sottili twisted. Temi ta 'l-Good Shepherd sejħa nagħaġ tiegħu ġew użati li jwasslu magħna biex isegwu l-awto-maħtur "mikrija idejn", mhux il-Bon Pastur. Jippruvaw jimitaw Alla, Marija, angels jew qaddisin, il-vuċi ta 'l-entices deceiver, huwa sema ħoss u spiss akkumpanjati minn sinjali u wonders.

Spiss il-vuċi Iskrittura kkwotati jirreferu għad-dawl, li jikkawżaw l-aktar biex wieħed jaħseb li din il-vuċi kien, fil-fatt, minn Ġesù. Pjuttost, huwa kien mill-anġlu li darba kienu ġew imsejħa Lucifer (anġlu ta 'dawl); iżda issa hija msejħa Satana għax waqa' mill-ġenna. Iskrittura tgħidilna fit-2 Korintin 11:13-15: "Għall-appostli huma tali falza, qarrieqa ħaddiema, jittrasformaw irwieħhom appostli ta 'Kristu. And no wonder! Għall Satana nnifsu jittrasforma ruħu fis-anġlu ta 'dawl. Għalhekk huwa l-ebda ħaġa kbira jekk l-ministri tiegħu wkoll jinbidlu fis-ministri ta 'tjieba, il-għan tagħhom ser ikunu skond il-xogħlijiet tagħhom. "

Kif aħna attendew il-gruppi ta 'talb tisma' din il-vuċi amministrata permezz ta 'l prophetess falza, konna ħsibna li jidħlu aktar fil-fond il-misteru ta' Alla. Minflok konna jidħlu aktar fil-fond ieħor qasam, il-misteru ta 'gnosticism (jirċievu tagħrif sigriet li jdawwalna). Il-prophetess foloz ta 'spiss qalulna li konna qed jirċievu "dwal" b'tali mod li nistgħu nifhmu l-messaġġi. Imħuħ tagħna kienu qed jittieħdu fuq mhux permezz ta 'vuċi minn Alla, iżda mill-missier ta' jinsab li huwa biex tqarraq kemm kemm jista 'jkun dawn l-aħħar jiem. Ħsibna konna qatigħ biex ġenna; imma konna it-twaqqif, għal darb'oħra, l-Torri ta 'Babel u tiela t-taraġ ta' kburija.

Bdejna biex jaħsbu ruħna bħala aktar speċjali minn kwalunkwe mit-tfal l-oħra Alla fid-dinja. Il-vuċi qalulna li konna l-creme de la crème; aħna kienu qed jingħataw grazzji aktar minn oħrajn qatt irċieva matul il-ħin minħabba konna ushering fl-era l-ġdida, l-renju tal-qalb "sagra". Il-vuċi qalulna li l-qassis kien eqreb lejn Alla minn xi ħadd qatt kien qabel. Xi ħaġa ma jidhirx dritt dwar dan kollu nitkellmu dwar qrib lil Alla. Madankollu, I still ħasbu li Ġesù kien xogħol li kollha barra l-glorja tieghu. Huwa dan li; iżda mhux fil-mod I mistennija fil-ħin. Grazzja tiegħu tkompli amaze me kuljum.

Fil-ħin, jiena nieqaf impjieg tiegħi, ma jsirx parti l-kbira ta 'l-affarijiet tiegħi u ressaq l-ewwel proprjetà mixtrija minn dan il-grupp. Din il-proprjetà tkun l-kwartieri ġenerali internazzjonali għall-moviment dinji. Eventwalment ordni ta 'qassisin u sorijiet jkun stabbilit konna told. Kollha kienet jkunu rranġati b'mod organizzat mill-vuċi. Il-vuċi isem dawk li huma mfittxija għall-impjiegi fl-"ministeru tagħha". Assignments tagħna qalulna eżatt x'għandu jsir ma 'kważi kull mument ta' kuljum tagħna. Matul dak iż-żmien, I Maħsub-Kappillan u l-prophetess falz kien l-"ġewwa scoop fuq rieda t 'Alla għalija.

Fl-ewwel l-vuċi ta 'l-prophetess falza imsejjaħ us membri tal-grupp ta' talb, gradwalment bdiet call us rgħajja. Inizjalment, qassisin biss kienu jissejħu rgħajja; iżda issa dawk li segwew l-leħen kien elevat għal din il-pożizzjoni. Wara xi żmien qed jintalbu rgħajja, l-vuċi bdiet sejħa us appostli. Qabel din il-bidla fil-titoli għall-membri tal-grupp, isqfijiet biss kienu jissejħu appostli. Wara li l-Mulej mogħtija lili mill-ensnarement tal-kult, I jiltaqgħu magħhom xi ħadd li told me li l-membri l-eqreb lejn l-"viżjoni" kienu issa qed jissejħu qaddisin.

Ladarba mogħtija minn dan il-kult, I avidly beda jistudja l-istruttura cult. I induna li, mat-titolu tal-qaddis, il-membri tista 'issa tiġi konvinta li tagħmel xejn l-vuċi told li tagħmel filwaqt li jemmen li ma jkunx se jsofri konsegwenzi dejjiema; iżda se jiġu ppremjati fis-sema għall-ubbidjenza inkondizzjonata. Dan huwa l-punt li fih Kulti ssir l-aktar perikolużi minħabba l-vjolenza huwa skużat jekk isir għall-ġid tal-grupp. Dan kien il-ħsieb tal-knisja Ruman meta l-inquisition kien istitwit. Dan kien ukoll il-ħsieb tal-kult tal-Restawr ta 'l-Għaxar Kmandamenti fl-Uganda meta in-nies kienu msejħa sabiex il-kappella għal messaġġ urġenti minn "Mary" - il-kappella kien issiġillat u mqabbad mal-pitrolju u l-membri kollha marru fil fjammi . Thinking kienu heureuse Alla, huma kienu verament wara evanġelju falz. Dan kien il-ħsieb ta 'Jim Jones eżatt qabel il-suwiċidju massa / qtil seħħet. Evil jiġġustifika lilu nnifsu billi jallegaw li huma Alla. Imbagħad tibda l-jitilgħu l-iskaluni ta 'kburija segwit minn jiġġustifikaw mibgħeda ta' l barra mill-"magħżula" grupp, anki l-qtil hija ġġustifikata bħala l-Isem ta 'Alla hija meħuda vain. Dan l-istess raġunament hija l-ġustifikazzjoni għall-Jihad (gwerer qaddisa).

Issikkar tal-Bondage

Wara li jiċċaqilqu ġewwa l-kwartieri ġenerali cult, il-ħajja tiegħi kien skrutiniżżati lejl u nhar. I kellu l-ebda libertà personali. Kull ħsieb, kelma u l-att kienet iddettata mill-messaġġi li jkunu ġejjin mill-vuċi. Xi drabi dawn il-messaġġi kienu mogħtija lili privatament bħala l-visonary "/ locutionist" channeled l-ispirtu li tippreżenta ruħha "Ġesù", xi kultant kienu fil-messaġġi tal-rosaries bħala l-temi ta 'l-ispirtu channeled ntqal li kienu japplikaw għal ċerti individwi li kienu ġiet mogħtija kompiti speċifiċi bil-vuċi u xi kultant kienu fil-forma bil-miktub kif il-falz kien irċevut prophetess messaġġi permezz tal-kitba awtomatika.

Lista ttajpjata tas-petizzjonijiet kienu li jingħad fis-siegħa sakemm il-membri tal-ċirku ta 'ġewwa ta' l-prophetess foloz kienu imqajjmin "jew il-moviment ikunx kollass u l-renju tal-qalb sagra" ma jseħħx. Din il-lista kibret sakemm kien hemm iktar minn 38-petizzjonijiet li jinqraw kull siegħa mill-ħin ta 'l-għoti tiegħi. Barra minn dawn il-petizzjonijiet, kull siegħa 3 l-talb bil-miktub mill-Kappillan ġew miżjuda mal-lista trid tagħmel. Gradwalment kliem aktar u aktar biex tinqara u "talb" li jingħad fil ċertu żmien u biss fil-format xieraq ġew miżjuda. Kien enfasizzat li kull kelma kienet importanti fit-talb. Huma ma setatx tinbidel. Fil-maġija, il-kliem għandhom jiġu ppronunzjati eżatt u biss fil-ħin xieraq sabiex il-demons jista 'jissejjaħ għall. Anke allura I mfakkar din il-kitba mill-Mattew 23:14 "Woe lilek, scribes u Pharisees, hypocrites! Għalik devour djar għan-nisa romol, u għal pretense jagħmlu talb twil. Għalhekk, inti ser tirċievi kundanna akbar. "I told spiss dawk l-eqreb għalija li kelli talb fil-qalb tiegħi li jiena ma setgħetx toħroġ minħabba l-kliem 'l-ispirtu kmanda lili biex recite. Kelli talb fil-qalb tiegħi, imma tal-qalb tiegħi kien qiegħed misduda ma 'abbundanza ta' formuli anġjo.

Massa ta 'kuljum kien ta' massa għandha (eventwalment darbtejn kuljum kien inkoraġġit ħafna). Adorazzjoni Ewkaristika kuljum għal mill-inqas siegħa kienet ukoll meħtieġa kif ukoll il-qari ta 'kuljum mill-kotba "jingħata" lill-prophetess falza mill-vuċi u ta' kuljum jisma 'tejps tal-vuċi. Il-lista kiber u kiber ta 'affarijiet li tagħmel biex jekk jogħġbok dan god "" ta' l-prophetess foloz u l-qassis. Jiem speċjali ġew imwarrba ma talb speċjali li jingħad fl-unur ta 'affarijiet bħall-dati ta' l-apparenza ta 'mara tagħna ta' Fatima. Wara tiegħi 'l-għoti mill-jasar tal-cult din il-kitba leaped off-paġna lili: "Isma' il-kelma tal-Mulej, inti ħakkiema tal Sodom; jagħtu widna għal-liġi ta 'Alla tagħna, int poplu ta' Gomorrah:" Għal dak il-għan huwa l-għadd kbir ta 'sagrifiċċji tiegħek biex Me? " jgħid il-Mulej. "I kellhom biżżejjed ta 'offerti maħruqa tal muntuni u x-xaħam ta' l-ifrat mitmugħin. I ma delight fid-demm tal-barrin, jew tal-ħrief jew tal-mogħoż. Meta inti taqa jidhru quddiem Me, li tkun meħtieġa minn din id-naħa tiegħek, li trample qrati My? Wassal mhux aktar sagrifiċċji għalxejn; incense hija abomination biex Me. Il-moons ġodda, il-Sabbaths, u s-sejħa tal-assemblaġġi-I ma tistax iddum ħażen u l-laqgħa sagru. Moons New tiegħek u festi maħtur tiegħek Ruħi hates; dawn huma problemi li Me, I am weary 'ġġorr minnhom. Meta inti mifruxa idejk, I se hide My għajnejn minn għandek; avolja inti tagħmel ħafna talb, I ma tismax. Idejn tiegħek huma sħiħa tad-demm "." Isaija 1:10-15

Aktar u aktar dan god "" kienet bidu lill-dehra ta 'ogre minflok ta' l Alla tal-Bibbja. Kif kien jivvjaġġaw għaċ-ċentru ġdid li jiġu fdati lili mill-vuċi wara li jkunu ġew inducted fis-ordni reliġjuża għadha kemm twaqqfet, ġrat lili li dan "god" tiġi amministrata deher li kien taħt il-kontroll ta 'l-prophetess foloz u tant kien żgħir ħafna meta mqabbel ma 'Jaħweh, Alla l-Almighty ta' l-Iskrittura. Dan god "kienet ikbar minn inifinitely lili iżda iżgħar minn l-Alla ta 'l-Iskrittura, l-Ħallieq ta' l-Ġenna u l-earth. Dan il-punt tidwir għalija kien magħmul possibbli mill-grazzja. I tifħir Alla għall-ħniena tiegħu u grazzja offruta lili I filwaqt li kien jgħixu fl idolatry. "Imma Alla commendeth l-imħabba tiegħu lejn us peress li, filwaqt li aħna kienu għadhom sinners, Kristu miet għalina." Rumani 5:8 Meta Ġesù taw il-ħajja tiegħu fuq is-salib ta 'Calvary Sa ftit żmien ilu, Hu kien jaf lili u fejn nixtieq wander.

L-Iskrittura: "Jiena l-ragħaj tajjeb, u jafu nagħaġ tiegħi, u jien magħrufa tal-mini." John 10:14 kien ikkwotat bħala rutina sabiex membri ser jaħseb li l-leħen ġew minn Ġesù u Hu kien shepherding magħna permezz ta 'dan il-ministeru ". Il-vuċi għandhom jitolbu wkoll l-ismijiet ta 'dawk preżenti biex jagħmluhom jaħsbu li kienu qed jissejħu mill Ġesù biex rwol speċjali fil-kult.

Nanna tiegħi kienet ta 'spiss ikkwotat li ġej verses lili I meta kien tifel:

"Għall-Iben ta 'Man wasal biex isalvaw dik li kienet mitlufa. What do you think? Jekk bniedem għandu nagħaġ mija, u wieħed minnhom imur astray, ma huwa ma jħallu l-disa 'u disgħin u tmur fil-muntanji sabiex tfittex l-waħda li hija straying? U jekk huwa għandu jsibuha, assuredly, ngħidilhom li inti, huwa rejoices aktar fuq dik tan-nagħaġ milli fuq il-disa 'u disgħin li ma tmurx astray. Anke hekk mhuwiex ir-rieda tal-Missier tiegħek li hu fis-smewwiet li wieħed minn dawn ftit dawk għandhom jitħassru. "Alla Mattew 18:11-14 mħawla dawn il-kliem fil-qalb tiegħi. Fir-qawwi l-ispirtu demonic tkun, ma tista 'tneħħi din il-verita.

Gradwalment l-kunċett li ma konniex biex jaqra xi materjali oħra milli l-materja ppubblikata minn dan il-kult ġiet introdotta. Il-komunikazzjoni kollha mal-dinja ta 'barra kien qed jittieħed il bogħod; ma konniex li tisma' xi ħaġa oħra għajr l-tapes tal-kult, l-ebda radju, l-ebda televiżjoni, ebda tapes oħra ġew permessi. Pass pass konna tiġi iżolata minn kulħadd minbarra l-membri cult. Familji u l-ħbieb tagħna kienu mmarkata bħala "qed jitħaddem bil-Satana li jeqirdu l-moviment". Kull min kien xi ħadd li "god" kienu ssieħbu dan l-kult vuċi qalulna. Dawk li ma jingħaqdu kienu deskritti bħala li ma pjaċir li Alla u Hu għalhekk ma kinitx bagħtet lilhom l-grazzja li jirrikonoxxu dan il-moviment "bħala" familja tiegħu ".

Sado-Masochism

Anyone who even slightly questioned the “movement” was labeled a persecutor. Persecution themes were established in the minds of the members to cause them to think they were being persecuted for following Jesus. Family members who were distressed with the loss of their loved ones to the cult were labeled persecutors. Those members who listened to their distressed relatives were said to have fallen under the influence of satan. The voice told us that we would have to suffer and that the multitude of things to be done to earn “God's grace” were to build up our armor for the spiritual warfare we would encounter with the ushering in of the new era. The voice, calling itself jesus, talked about us being bruised and beaten to build us into strong soldiers in his army.

Any complaining was frowned upon by the leaders. Those who were perceived to be complaining were soon met with condemning messages channeled through the false prophetess and upheld by the priest. These messages would give the formula for being restored to the grace of the voice. If these messages were not heeded, the culprit was told by the channeled voice that s/he would be attacked by satan and run into the flames of hell at high speed. This method greatly cut down the complaining. Many members seemed to thrive in this environment in a masochistic way. Others seemed to thrive on being placed into positions of power and thrilled to be able to wield their power over those placed under them.

Many members talked about suffering for others in the “movement”. They actually did suffer. Once, I did too. The priest told me that I had the “internal stigmata”. I realize now this name was conjured up to keep me suffering and subservient to the dictators of the cult, a spiritual form of masochism. Once I was delivered from the cult I recalled John 10:10: “The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.” I was also convicted by 1 Corinthians 13:1-3: “Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.”

Following my deliverance, I realized I had been following the thief who was calling himself “Jesus”, taking the Name of God in vain for his own glory and deceiving the sheep into self destruction and worship of idols. When I realized that Jesus was the only mediator between God and man, I understood that I could never suffer to earn grace for others. This kind of thinking denies the sufficiency of the Blood of Jesus. John 19:30 “So when Jesus had received the sour wine, He said, “It is finished!” And bowing His head, He gave up His spirit.” John 17:1-5 “Jesus spoke these words, lifted up His eyes to heaven, and said: “Father, the hour has come. Glorify Your Son, that Your Son also may glorify You, as You have given Him authority over all flesh, that He should give eternal life to as many as You have given Him. And this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent. I have glorified You on the earth. I have finished the work which You have given Me to do. And now, O Father, glorify Me together with Yourself, with the glory which I had with You before the world was.” (underlining added)

Once delivered from this demonic bondage, I realized that I had been a foolish sheep following a hired hand instead of the Good Shepherd. Without understanding what I was doing, I had made myself into a little “god” thinking my works could somehow stay the hand of God and save souls. Only Jesus can save souls. He saves through His Work on the Cross accomplished once for all. (Hebrews 10:10). There is nothing anyone can do to earn grace. Jesus did it all. Grace is the unmerited favor of God freely given to the undeserving.

Leaders of the cult were channeling voices that were not from Heaven. They held all power over those who had come under their influence. They had become “gods” to their subjects. Twice in my presence the channeled voice delivered a message through the false prophetess during the recitation of the rosary saying, “You will become disciples of satan.” At the time I thought this was just a slip of the tongue caused by human error, now I believe it was an unmasking of the serpent behind the voice.

Galations 2:21 “I do not make void the grace of God; for if righteousness come by the law, then Christ is dead in vain.” To deny the sufficiency of the one time sacrifice of Jesus on the Cross for our sins is an attempt to make void the grace of God and replace it by works prescribed by the church of Rome, demonic spirits and man-made systems.

The prophetess who channeled the voice increasingly began to demand unconditional obedience to her every whim. She had become a goddess in her mind and demanded worship. Although I thought she was receiving messages from Jesus, I did not think she was a goddess. She may have realized that I was not worshipping her because she began to clamp down on me more and more with severe punishments until God made a way for me to escape.

The voice channeled through the prophetess repeatedly told us that we must unconditionally obey the messages channeled through her, the priest and the male lay leader of the “ministry” who was given the title of president. Members came to learn that this meant that these three were never to be questioned for they had been given the authority of God. These three functioned as an ungodly counterfeit trinity. Any who questioned were punished through messages.

After my deliverance, Romans 6:16 convicted my heart of the sin of obeying the words of man above the Word of God: “Do you not know that to whom you present yourselves slaves to obey, you are that one's slaves whom you obey, whether of sin leading to death, or of obedience leading to righteousness?”

Who is in Control?

The foremost purpose of the group was to renew the priesthood. According to their beliefs, “Jesus” would not be present on this earth without priests. Priests were needed to channel “Jesus” into the eucharist. The implication was that if the priests were gone, God would disappear from the earth. Thus, priests were in control of God; they were set up to be more powerful than God. Priests had been elevated to a position of being necessary for Jesus to come into this earth; they were channelers just as the false prophetess was, set up to manipulate God. I was grieved to come to this undertanding. The very thing I held so dearly, the eucharist, had been misrepresented by the church of Rome. I had to let go of my old understanding knowing that it was false and dishonoring God.

There was no choice for me. It was either let go of the illusion of the eucharist or stay under the spell of Rome. If I truly wanted to live according to truth, I had to come out from among them as I read 2 Corinthians 6:11-18 “O Corinthians! We have spoken openly to you, our heart is wide open. You are not restricted by us, but you are restricted by your own affections. Now in return for the same (I speak as to children), you also be open. 14 Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers. For what fellowship has righteousness with lawlessness? And what communion has light with darkness? And what accord has Christ with Belial? Or what part has a believer with an unbeliever? And what agreement has the temple of God with idols? For you are the temple of the living God. As God has said: 'I will dwell in them and walk among them. I will be their God, And they shall be My people'. Therefore 'Come out from among them and be separate', says the Lord. 'Do not touch what is unclean, and I will receive you. I will be a Father to you, And you shall be My sons and daughters', Says the Lord Almighty.” I was deeply grieved when I realized the blasphemy I had participated in. How unfathomable the mercy of God to have delivered one such as I!

Sometime while I was living in the house owned by the cult and under the scrutiny of those the voice had placed in charge of me, the Holy Spirit inspired me to only think on those things right and good. I would sleep with the light on in my room because the “director” of the center who had been the one to whom I was to be unconditionally obedient could be extremely cruel. He would enter my room without so much as a knock on the door. He had no manners and seemed to think I was his personal property. I did not know what to expect next from him. In this desperate situation I had no one to turn to except Jesus. If I were to disobey any order from this man, it would get immediately back to the “visionary/locutionist” who would come up with a message from her spirit giving me a severe punishment.

After dozing for brief periods of time, I would awaken in a sweat and jot down Scripture verses that would come to my mind. Doing this would help keep my focus on those things “right and good” instead of the evil I was sensing all around me. I would dwell on the promises of God and not on the seeming hopelessness of my situation.

My daughter was beside herself knowing that I was indeed in a cult. She would call daily and insist the director let me talk to her though he was extremely rude to her. She was trying to talk sense into me; but I was not too sensible at the time. I dared not tell her there was anything amiss although she knew it. The messages said that we could not talk to anyone about anything we saw amiss or the reign of the sacred heart would not come. We had been brainwashed into believing that what we saw was what the devil had caused us to see and this was not really the way it was. I truly did not believe that; but I knew I was trapped. Not knowing where to turn, I turned to Jesus asking Him to fix what was wrong with this “ministry”; I still thought it had originated from Him and something had gone wrong somewhere. He did not fix the “movement”; but He did fix me. He delivered me from among them. He then restored me through the truth of His Word.

Permission Granted

While dwelling in that secret keeping cult, this Scripture would come to my mind from Luke 8:17: “For nothing is secret that will not be revealed, nor anything hidden that will not be known and come to light.”

I had asked for permission to visit my daughter one Mother's Day. She was deeply grieved and feared for my welfare. She had seen me change into someone she did not know and she was deeply concerned. The president firmly told me the priest said I could not leave to visit my daughter. My heart was broken; but I dared not complain or this “jesus” of theirs would send me a punishment. I had to be obedient without question according to the messages. I began to silently cry, the wind was knocked out of me and I felt as if I would faint. I told this man that I was sorry I was crying; but my daughter was hurting and that grieved my soul.

This man then began to shout at me saying: “Your daughter has a bad relationship with Jesus! If you have a good relationship with Jesus, you can go out and buy a machine gun and gun down everyone in sight and you will still have a good relationship with Jesus!” Those words pierced my heart. I knew I dare not respond or my daughter's life would be in danger. Though it looked to me as if there was no way out I silently prayed for help for both myself and my daughter. I did not tell anyone in the group about this conversation because by this time the members had all learned to report to the “visionary/locutionist”, priest or president of the group if any member spoke against them.

The voice had given messages about me to certain strategic others. In the stages of cult development, the group had progressed to the point of reporting any infractions of

group rules. This kept peer pressure on the ones not trusted in order to make them conform to the group or be ostracized. If one were brainwashed enough, you would believe that leaving the group would be turning your back on God. This belief could lead to debaucherous living, suicide or any number of assorted evils. The prophecies of the devil attacking those who left the group would then become self fulfilling prophecies. Mind control in the cult was deadly sophisticated in taking the Name of God in vain!

One night after Mother's Day as I was dozing, it came to me that I had to call the priest early the next morning and ask his permission to visit my daughter before the president or the false prophetess could get wind of it. The false prophetess could not go against the priest once he had given permission. I knew the exact words to say to him; it was my only chance. The priest gave me permission to visit my family. Before I left, the three (the false prophetess, the president and the priest) came for their monthly visit. I knew the false prophetess would bring a message obtained through automatic writing from this “jesus” of hers; but I also knew the Holy Spirit would direct me and I would know what to do. Therefore, I did not dwell on it.

The typed message received through automatic writing by the “visionary/locutionist” was given to me. I took the priest aside and repeated the reason I needed to visit my daughter. I told him that I sincerely wanted to be in the will of God; but how could I be a mother superior to an order of nuns if I could not be a mother to my own daughter. He thought for a minute and then said to me: “Go with my permission.” He said this to me three times before I left. This priest who stood behind all of the false prophetess' messages, even the most cruel, went against her message this time. I believe that it was God's will that I leave and nothing could stop His will from being done. The priest had no choice but to give me permission.

I now recall these Words of Life from Scripture: Isaiah 55:6-13 “Seek the Lord while He may be found, Call upon Him while He is near. Let the wicked forsake his way, And the unrighteous man his thoughts; Let him return to the Lord, And He will have mercy on him; And to our God, For He will abundantly pardon. “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts. “For as the rain comes down, and the snow from heaven, And do not return there, But water the earth, And make it bring forth and bud, That it may give seed to the sower And bread to the eater, So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; It shall not return to Me void, But it shall accomplish what I please, And it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it. “For you shall go out with joy, And be led out with peace; The mountains and the hills Shall break forth into singing before you, And all the trees of the field shall clap their hands. Instead of the thorn shall come up the cypress tree, And instead of the brier shall come up the myrtle tree; And it shall be to the Lord for a name, For an everlasting sign that shall not be cut off.” (underlining added)

Freedom from Bondage

On the trip back home, it seemed as if God were parting the Red Sea before me. I knew in my heart that I had been saved by grace alone; nothing I had done could have earned my deliverance. Only the Blood of Jesus could free me from bondage to the evil one.

Once I arrived back home, I removed my habit. This was only the first step in the battle to be delivered from the darkness posing as the light. I spent the first year frequently waking with night terrors. I knew God was with me and He would lead me through the terrors. He was in control and I trusted Him unconditionally. I knew I could not fight this battle alone. Only God could fight this battle for me and He had already won the victory at Calvary. There was no in between: I either had to walk in faith or succomb to fear. I chose to walk in faith. This is a commitment I renew daily.

When fear grips me, these Scriptures come to mind : Matthew 10:24-28 “A disciple is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master. It is enough for a disciple that he be like his teacher, and a servant like his master. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more will they call those of his household! Therefore do not fear them. For there is nothing covered that will not be revealed, and hidden that will not be known. “Whatever I tell you in the dark, speak in the light; and what you hear in the ear, preach on the housetops. And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. But rather fear Him who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.”

Luke 1:68-74 “Blessed is the Lord God of Israel, For He has visited and redeemed His people, And has raised up a horn of salvation for us In the house of His servant David, As He spoke by the mouth of His holy prophets, Who have been since the world began, That we should be saved from our enemies And from the hand of all who hate us, To perform the mercy promised to our fathers And to remember His holy covenant, The oath which He swore to our father Abraham: To grant us that we, Being delivered from the hand of our enemies, Might serve Him without fear, In holiness and righteousness before Him all the days of our life.”

Time I spent awake at night was used to study about cults and I discovered that the “ministry” had all the hallmarks of a cult. I slept with a book about cults and the Bible at my side. When I would awaken with whisperings to go to the priest and throw myself on his mercy since that would be my only chance of not going to hell, I would be ready to act on that prompting. Such whisperings mimicked the Holy Spirit and were deceiving. Before getting ready to go to the priest, I would pick up my book about cults and reconfirm that the “ministry” was indeed a cult by applying the criteria. Then the whisperings would be still. I would then turn to the Scriptures and read God's promises to deliver His unfaithful people. The Scriptures were food for my wounded spirit; they renewed my mind. God's Word gave me hope while cleansing my mind from the lies that had enslaved me.

At this point, I still did not realize the Roman church was no different than the cult. I thought this cult was just an aberration and was out to destroy the church of Rome. I came to understand the dangers of this group and of all cults based on apparitions and messages throughout the world. I read a book about Medjugorje and the evil of that place. There was very little difference from the cult I had been in. The more I learned, the more I understood the depth of the evil. It was difficult to cope with this understanding; but I knew that only God could give me what I needed to know in His perfect timing and that He was with me through it all. He was teaching me a transforming life lesson. I grieved for those I had left behind and wanted to rescue them. I knew they could not hear me because they had been told that I was being operated by satan.

Several members were sent to try to call me back. They utilized threats at times; however, the threats were all in language only understood by cult members. Very few would understand me if I would tell them of the threats. To most, telling of these threats would make me seem paranoid. This was frustrating; but I realized God was teaching me and leading on the path He had prepared for me. He would show me where to go and with whom to speak and not to speak. There are some who have heard me and understand my plight. I thank God for those few. One woman was sent to “love bomb” me into returning to the cult. She initiated her involvement with me by telling me she had also left the cult. Eventually, I realized she was sent to call me back. I began to sense the danger of being involved with her. She was also taking information back to the cult. This woman was in charge of the pilgrim image of our lady of Guadalupe in this area. She told me she was receiving “messages” from our lady of Guadalupe. Through the time spent with her, I began to realize more clearly the outright idolatry of bowing to images. It seemed the Lord was gently leading me to give up more and more of the illusion of the church of Rome.

Eventually I gained the strength to write to the bishop. I talked to several priests, even one from the Vatican. None of them seemed to share my concern about the souls being lost. The bishop told me that “groups like these fizzle out in time”. I could not help but think that the Nazis did a lot of damage before they were stopped. It seemed bishops were more like politicians than shepherds, watching every word they said. The last time I spoke with the bishop I told him I believed the Holy Spirit worked through the bishops. As I said those words which I had once believed, they sounded like tin in my ears; I knew they were not true.

I kept close watch on what the Pope was doing thinking that if he only knew of these cults, he would put an end to them as would any good shepherd. I watched him as he placed a man who was a follower of Teilhard de Chardin (the father of the new age) in a high position with the finances in the Vatican. I watched him as he kissed the Koran – something many Christians were martyred for refusing to do. I realized that this was blatantly turning his back on Jesus. My heart was aching as I realized something was very wrong with this institution I had held so closely and so dearly. The leaders were clearly denying Jesus Christ!

Jesus Christ is the Rock

My break with Rome came while I was walking through my dining room one day. I was suddenly convicted by the Holy Spirit of the meaning of Matthew 16:13-18: “When Jesus came into the region of Caesarea Philippi, He asked His disciples, saying, “Who do men say that I, the Son of Man, am?” So they said, “Some say John the Baptist, some Elijah, and others Jeremiah or one of the prophets.” He said to them, “But who do you say that I am?” Simon Peter answered and said, “You are the Christ, the Son of the living God.” Jesus answered and said to him, “Blessed are you, Simon Bar-Jonah, for flesh and blood has not revealed this to you, but My Father who is in heaven. And I also say to you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build My church, and the gates of Hades shall not prevail against it.” I realized Jesus did not mean that Peter was the rock; but that He, Jesus, was the Rock. Jesus was referring to Peter's belief that He was the Messiah. Jesus told Peter that His church would be built upon faith in Him. Repeatedly throughout the Bible “Rock” refers to God not to Peter. Two examples are:

Deuteronomy 32:1-4 “Give ear, O heavens, and I will speak; And hear, O earth, the words of my mouth. Let my teaching drop as the rain, My speech distill as the dew, As raindrops on the tender herb, And as showers on the grass. For I proclaim the name of the Lord: Ascribe greatness to our God. He is the Rock, His work is perfect; For all His ways are justice, A God of truth and without injustice; Righteous and upright is He.”

1 Corinthians 10:1-4 “Moreover, brethren, I do not want you to be unaware that all our fathers were under the cloud, all passed through the sea, all were baptized into Moses in the cloud and in the sea, all ate the same spiritual food, and all drank the same spiritual drink. For they drank of that spiritual Rock that followed them, and that Rock was Christ.” (underlining added)

With this clear understanding, I knew that I had to leave the church of Rome. I did a search on the internet for former Catholics and discovered Richard Bennett's testimony. Richard is a former Roman Catholic priest from Ireland who through the Word of God and the gift of the Holy Spirit came to understand the lie of the Roman church. I cried tears of relief and joy because I was not alone in this world. It still took me over a year to write to him. When I did, he was most gracious and encouraged me to write my story.

It has been very difficult to write. I had to battle through the fear and the programming that told me for so many years that to speak out about the corruption in the church of Rome was evil and would send me to hell. The programming I had in the cult of the false prophetess was only a reinforcement of the programming I had had as a member of the church of Rome.

By the grace of God, I am a Christian now. I am not perfect. I am only a sinner saved by grace and declared righteous by faith in the work of Jesus on the Cross. I learn more from the Word of God every day. It is nourishment for my soul which hungered for truth and by God's grace found it in the Scriptures. “Sanctify them through thy truth; thy word is truth.” John 17:17

I did nothing and could do nothing to earn or deserve the saving grace Jesus offered me. “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God – not of works, lest any man should boast.” Ephesians 2:8-9 He took my sins upon Himself so that I could be freed from bondage to sin and the enticements of satan. “Who his own self bore our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness; by whose stripes we were healed.” 1 Peter 2: 24 There is no evil so great that Jesus cannot free us. “If the Son, therefore, shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.” John 8: 36 Praise God for His faithfulness to His unfaithful people! “Faithful is he that calleth you, who will also do it.” 1 Thess 5:24

Jesus is the Rock upon which I stand, all other rock is sinking sand.

By His grace I proclaim what He has done for me.